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Like sand through the hourglass...

Tue Feb 17, 2009, 12:36 PM
  • Mood: Winter Downs
  • Reading: This Side of Paradise by F Scott Fitzgerald
  • Drinking: Turkish coffee
Does anyone else out there ever feel like you're losing valuable time? Like now is the time to be amazing and creative and productive, but instead you're just... stagnating? Like all the unimportant and mundane aspects of your life are slowly devouring any real ambition/creativity you may once have possessed?

This is begining to read like a Proust novel, but I'm serious. I know this is probably boring the one or two people who actually look at my journal, but I can't fight this sensation of wasting my life. I'm sure tons of college students feel like this, but... well, I'm not used to it.

It probably doesn't help that I've been reading loads of F Scott FItzgerald and Hemingway, who both have that melancholic nostalgia for days past. Still, at least Fitzgerald put a novel out by 24. I'm nowhere near that.

Aside from my paranoia about losing time, I've been well, and I hope you all have too. I have a few new poems, so please check them out and let me know what you think. Comments make me smile!

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~azrael1984 Feb 17, 2009, 2:53:47 PM
Oh god yes all the time. >< I constantly worry that I'm not doing anything meaningful (to me) especially in terms of my creative work and I never feel like I have enough time to devote to any of it properly. :(

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"Un soir, j'ai assis la Beauté sur mes genoux. - Et je l'ai trouvée amère. - Et je l'ai injuriée." - Arthur Rimbaud
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~poeticgenius23 Feb 17, 2009, 3:49:16 PM
Well, it comforts me slightly to know that I'm not alone in this...still. I mean, I know I'm in school, which is productive and meaningful, but it just isn't the same.

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Genius is born, not paid.-- Oscar Wilde
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~jankoraven Feb 17, 2009, 10:27:28 PM
I KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL, especially when I see so many artists succeeding in the world who are so much younger than I am. :S
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~azrael1984 Feb 18, 2009, 5:58:21 AM
I'm in university and I still feel like this. I think we may be too hard on ourselves though. The pace of life etc. is so much faster nowadays than when F.Scott Fitzgerald wrote...which isn't to say that life back then was easier because it wasn't, but I have a feeling they had more time to do things like hone their writing skills than we do.

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"Un soir, j'ai assis la Beauté sur mes genoux. - Et je l'ai trouvée amère. - Et je l'ai injuriée." - Arthur Rimbaud
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~poeticgenius23 Feb 18, 2009, 5:48:27 PM
Sigh... well, here's hoping. Of course, it isn't that I'm not writing and working toward making my work better- I just wish I didn't have to join the ratrace in order to get by. You're probably right, though.

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Genius is born, not paid.-- Oscar Wilde
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~poeticgenius23 Feb 18, 2009, 5:49:09 PM
Yeah, tell me about it! It's very frustrating. I guess we'll just have to reassure ourselves of our incredible talent and soldier on, right?

--
Genius is born, not paid.-- Oscar Wilde
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~azrael1984 Feb 18, 2009, 7:31:43 PM
God knows I wish I didn't have to join the ratrace to get by...but I guess there's only so much you can do, and everyone's gotta make a living afterall. Unless of course you end up selling as much as Ms. Rowling does. I think she's the only writer alive who's never going to have to worry about doing a job she can't stand to support herself.

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"Un soir, j'ai assis la Beauté sur mes genoux. - Et je l'ai trouvée amère. - Et je l'ai injuriée." - Arthur Rimbaud
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~poeticgenius23 Feb 20, 2009, 12:35:45 AM
True. Someday maybe I'll make that much money- though its not really the money, you know? It's more... not having to do something else to make money. Well, I'm young. I'll get by.

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Genius is born, not paid.-- Oscar Wilde
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~azrael1984 Feb 20, 2009, 11:24:17 AM
Yeah, I know what you mean. People who really love writing never do it for the money, but at the end of the day you still need it to cover basic costs and stuff.

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"Un soir, j'ai assis la Beauté sur mes genoux. - Et je l'ai trouvée amère. - Et je l'ai injuriée." - Arthur Rimbaud
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