Does anyone else out there ever feel like you're losing valuable time? Like now is the time to be amazing and creative and productive, but instead you're just... stagnating? Like all the unimportant and mundane aspects of your life are slowly devouring any real ambition/creativity you may once have possessed?

This is begining to read like a Proust novel, but I'm serious. I know this is probably boring the one or two people who actually look at my journal, but I can't fight this sensation of wasting my life. I'm sure tons of college students feel like this, but... well, I'm not used to it.

It probably doesn't help that I've been reading loads of F Scott FItzgerald and Hemingway, who both have that melancholic nostalgia for days past. Still, at least Fitzgerald put a novel out by 24. I'm nowhere near that.

Aside from my paranoia about losing time, I've been well, and I hope you all have too. I have a few new poems, so please check them out and let me know what you think. Comments make me smile!

So my birthday was Thursday, and I am now officially an adult in every sense of the word. I have kind of mixed feelings about it. It's nice because now I can go out with my friends who are already 21 (and irritate the shit out of my mom by ordering a beer with dinner when we go out) but at the same time, 21 feels like an enormous step closer to Doing Something With My Life. A state of being I am not altogether keen to experience first hand. I don't know, I just don't feel like an adult. Has anyone else experienced this?

In other news, I seem to have gotten back on the bandwagon about posting things up here, so kudos to me! Hope everyone is enjoying the new material, and I must send thanks to all those who have commented on my new work. I'm getting some great feedback, and I love it! Thanks especially to JankoRaven and Bill- love you both!

Ok, so I know I appear to have lied when I said that I was going to post new stuff. Probably because I did... But I will. Seriously.

But much more importantly than anything I may have written is my SUPER HUGE news!!! I AM GOING TO HAVE FUCKING BREAKFAST WITH NEIL GAIMAN!!!!!! This is no joke! I work at a bookstore, and in October we're going to a book seller's convention. And at the author breakfast will be, you guessed it, NEIL GAIMAN! OMG I was so excited when my coworker told me, that I practically flipped out in the middle of the store. I'm still in shock. He's going to be signing books, too. My fear now, of course, is that I'm going to get to the front of the line and sound like some kind of stuttering moron: "Mr. Gaiman... I just... oh, wow... I just LOVE all your work..." Yikes! Like he probably doesn't get that ALL the time. But, y'know, he's only a literary god to me. Wow, I'm still so excited.

Anyway, that's all. Just wanted to inform you. Yeah.
Love to all! Particularly JankoRaven- hope school is going well, lovey!!
Ciao! XOXO!

Here I am! Back in action and ready to post! Well, tomorrow... But I am indeed ready to post, so expect two or three short stories within the next 24 hours. YAY!!

AND I have some other good news... Eddie, my faithful iPod, was able to fight his way back into the land of the living. So I now, once again, have music! I am SO happy. I was preparing to buy a new one entirely, and I'm glad I can spare myself the expense. Class starts again next week, and I need to buy a parking permit and textbooks. Ick! But I was able to save up quite a bit of money over the summer, and my Financial Aid has actually worked out this semester- thank God!

Oh, and love, love and MORE love to JankoRaven, who is leaving the nest and venturing out on her own to go to school- good luck darling, and don't forget to write!!! I'll miss you!

Anyway, kisses to everybody! Look for the new stories tomorrow!!

Well here I am. Not quite dead, but slightly too blah to be considered really alive. Nothing much going on here- I'm working, going back to school in about a month. Oh, and my familia is driving me loca! It's not like their being unbearable or anything, they're just ALWAYS AROUND! Seriously, my mom is a teacher and my sister doesn't work, so they're never gone. I have absolutely ZERO privacy. So everytime I sit down to write (you see, I haven't forgotten you all!) someone is always poking their nose into my room with an asinine question about something or other. Sigh.... How can genius flourish in such a stifling environment? I ask you!

That aside, I'm alright. I have written some more, and mean to post it very soon. Promise promise promise!! Oh, and I'm going to see the X Files movie tonight and I'm SUPER excited! Yay!

Well, lovies, cuddles and all the usual! Oodles of love!!
Me